“You are a midwife, assisting at someone else’s birth. Do good without show or fuss. Facilitate what is happening rather than what you think ought to be happening. If you must take the lead, lead so that the they are helped, yet still free and in charge. When the baby is born, the person will rightly say: “We did it ourselves!”
– From The Tao Te Ching
My name is Ninotte Lubin, Born and raised in Haiti. Number 5 of a family of 6 children, single, no kids but, caring for a family of 4 people including my mother and my nephew who is an orphan.
My passion about childbirth has started years before I found out about Midwifery in 2010 after the earthquake. I have a business degree but was not interested in spending my life in thinking only about how to make money. I have always wanted and waited to find my life somewhere else I’ll be more useful. Opportunities are never welcome in my culture especially when you are part of the lower class. I tried many things including teaching high school kids where I have found myself as a natural teacher. But, I stopped it because being in the educational field in my country is the worst way to go to have a sustainable life. And, you burn yourself out for reasons that are not worth much because the educational system is made to enslave your mind instead of freeing you. Being a black free country 2 centuries ago, I was fascinated by knowing more about history, have questioned our poverty, predominant religion, the politic system, foreign help, missionaries and so forth. So, being a researcher has made me understood and been able to repeat what Nelson Mandela said:
Poverty is not an accident. Like slavery and apartheid, it is man-made and can be removed by the actions of human beings.
In 2003-2004, while a lot of shooting, kidnapping happened in Haiti where a lot of children served as messengers either to shoot or kidnap, I started to realize how women should change the way they either get pregnant or give birth in order for things to change.
January 12th, 2010- the earthquake happened. What has left in the country? What has brought for us? Lots of people with good money but no strong LOCAL/NATIONAL LEADER with integrity and dignity!
Five months later I started to work as a translator for midwives at BUMI/SEHAT, which became MOTHER HEALTH INTERNATIONAL (Non-Governmental Organization). I got impressed by the midwives practice and loved it. My country is full of people who called themselves midwives with no formal education, they either do it by routine or had a dream about it and they deliver 75% of our babies. Are they healthy babies with no prenatal care, non-sterile techniques, and unsanitary houses? How about mothers, how many prevented death could be saved? Who knows?
Soon, I have become a student midwife, got inspired by many midwives but especially by Melinda Mclaren, a young, passionate, compassionate midwife who have served me as the main teacher among many that I met and worked with. So thankful to all of them!
I also spent two years working as a student midwife at OLIVE TREE PROJECT, another NGO that is serving many women and babies in my hometown.
My experiences as a midwife in only 3 years are fascinating and frustrating. I love being part of the women’s lives, Education is my preferred part but, I got tired by seeing too many unwanted children and a loss of home life. What can I do to help? We are so dependent and vulnerable! Our brain is so well made to keep us poor while foreign big help always come with an agenda. As Haitians, either you blame others for your misery or hopeless with the faith that GOD knows. You never are responsible for your actions!
What if women become strong and educated to break the cycle of the poverty by thinking and planning when to have a child? What if I become a midwife leader to advocate for healthy babies and safe homebirth with skilled, professional midwives? What if I advocate for the country to have Midwifery schools in order for women to learn how to serve women in a better and safely way? What if, what if…, So much to do and, something has to be done!
I’m a woman of color who clearly knows what I want and how to get what I want. I’m a warrior who is thirsty for TRUTH and LOVE. I’m a dreamer who never wants to stop dreaming. My dream is to live in peace and abundance of love, the love that comes from our creator which is: Love your neighbor like you love yourself.
Never forget your dream! No one can stop you unless you stop yourself! My parent’s life has taught me a lot, Love them so much!
A big thanks to my entire sister midwives who trust my vision and are always ready to help me go further. I would not be there without your help in a lot of ways, so grateful!
Thank you Ananda Phoenix, you are one of my special people!
I am a midwife by way of my body that teaches me, by way of the plants that whisper to me, by way of the many beautiful, powerful and infinitely expansive circles of women, elders and queer folk who nurture me, by way of a sequence of events that carried me along this path for many years, loving me, holding me, trusting that I would hear the call. An apprentice with birth, a recent graduate of La Matrona, a community midwife and activist.
I’m wherever the birthing tides take me, often found in Jakmel, sometimes found in Montreal, currently found in Nelson BC